Time Aware

12 Aug

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It’s soon approaching the two year anniversary of my ruptured brain aneurysm on October 19, 2012. If there is one thing I could say that would describe my life since then is my overwhelming sense of time.

I’ve always heard people older than me often commenting how fast time is moving. Perhaps now I’m just one of those people that are in that category because I am older now. I turned 54 in January.

Since my aneurysm I feel a certain urgency about completing tasks that I’ve started in the past and a reluctance to start anything new for fear that it will be yet another unfinished task in a pile that is too high already.

Last October our oldest daughter got married and they are expecting their first child on Thanksgiving. Our youngest daughter is getting married this October. These are exciting times in our home with the anticipation of these events.

Last month my husband and I went on a short term mission trip to a boys orphanage in Kingston, Jamaica. It is something I have wanted to do for a long time but life was busy with our own family so we could never seem to find the right time to go. I left part of my heart in Kingston. We are planning a return trip for this July.

I am more aware of time these days as I watch both my parents and my husband’s parents approaching 80 years old. We are blessed that they are all in good health and able to live each day independently but I realize at any time that can change and with that change there will be change.

My mind wanders from the present to the future as I ponder what regrets I will feel about my life if there are things I don’t accomplish or pursue and whether they really are important in the scheme of things.

Each day I get up and go to work as I did before the aneurysm, knowing that I need to work or we need to change our lifestyle so we don’t need to work as much. I still wonder what my perfect job or life would be when I grow up.

I told my husband this past week that I finally decided on my new career. I told him that I’ve decided to be a stay at home Mom. He looked at me puzzled. He said “Don’t you have to have kids at home to be a stay at home Mom?” I said ” I don’t think so after all I am a Mom and I am perfectly capable of staying at home. I don’t think they have to happen at the same time to meet the definition. What could be more perfect.”


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7 responses to “Time Aware

  1. Carol Ann Hoel

    August 12, 2014 at 8:54 am

    Speak your desires and they may materialize. God loves you and wants you to be happy. I pray that he will open doors for you to bring about your desires.

    I have not often heard of people survivivg a brain aneurism. You are greatly blessed, highly favored, and deeply loved. God is good.

    Blessings to you, Jeanne…

    • flyinggma

      August 12, 2014 at 9:02 am

      Thank you so much Carol for your kind words. I am indeed greatly blessed, highly favored, and deeply loved by God and so many others. Blessings to you dear friend…Jeanne

  2. T E Stazyk

    August 12, 2014 at 3:30 pm

    Good to hear from you again! Best of luck in your new career!

    • flyinggma

      August 12, 2014 at 11:05 pm

      Thanks Tom. The new career is just wishful thinking on my part. Still working at the family business doing bookkeeping and detailing cars.

  3. Barbara

    August 12, 2014 at 4:41 pm

    Nice to see you here Jeanne!
    I agree with Carol Ann – speak your desires, put them out to the universe and they may materialize. You are indeed blessed to have survived a brain aneurysm; you must feel like you have another chance at life Jeanne. I nearly lost my husband last December and thankfully he survived, but he now sees life very differently. It was a wake-up call for us both.
    Each day is precious, embrace it and fulfill your desires. Life is good.

    • flyinggma

      August 12, 2014 at 11:08 pm

      Thanks Barbara for leaving a comment. So sorry to hear about your husbands trouble in December. Thankful he survived as well. It certainly has a way of changing how you look at life. I agree each day is indeed precious!

  4. pattisj

    August 13, 2014 at 1:28 pm

    I’m so happy to see a post from you! You have been quite busy this past year, two weddings and a grandbaby on the way, too! I enjoy being a stay-at-home mom, though our daughter is all grown up. I’m free to travel to visit her and help out when extra hands are needed, and I’m having lunch “out” with friends–something I’ve never done before. Not to mention strolls at the botanical garden…there’s a lot of life to live. Enjoy!


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